My Big Girl Life

So as I am sitting watching an MTV Reality Challenge show, on the eve of my last day at the only job I have had through college, I have many different emotions running through me.

First, I am excited to finally be a Big Girl and take my first leap into the corporate world; working at what I am going to refer to as The Big Red Box. It is the first of many steps in accomplishing my life-long Fashionista dream.  Someday I will be CEO, or own my own boutique, or start a marketing firm and have a reality show- basically it will be amazing whatever I ultimately end up doing. Honestly though, right now, I think I am more excited about decorating my own apartment and shopping in the Target home section with all the new money I am going to be making.

However, I am quite terrified about moving away from my home in the backwoods of Florida, 600 miles away to the big city of Raleigh, North Carolina, where I do not know a single soul. It turned out quite a surprise when my mother also packed up her house and decided to move to Raleigh after I already signed my contract- but family does not count as friends in my book, while it will be nice to know someone.

But mostly, more than the excitement and fear, I am just sad.  I am sad to be leaving my dad back on the Florida beaches, along with my childhood memories. I am sad to be leaving my beloved University, which I have grown to love and take so much pride in these past 4 years. I am sad to be leaving my boyfriend, the Camo Man, and stretch our relationship across four states indefinitely. I am sad to be leaving all my pretty friends whom I have so much fun with. And, as of tomorrow, I am sad to be leaving my job, that while sometimes it is the last place I want to be, it is this best job I have had to date. I can only hope that I enjoy The Big Red Box as much.

So here I sit, staring at the empty shelves on my wall, the smiling faces housed in their frames in boxes, upon the threshold of my new world. I have decided to start this blog for many reasons. First, I thought it would be an easy way for my soon-to-be-distant friends to know what’s happening in my life, and also a way for me to chronicle my own story to “save for later” so to speak. But more than anything else, I think it will serve as a cathartic experiment for me, during my huge transition into my new Big Girl Life.

So I guess it begins now. This is me. And this is my Big Girl Life.

Love always,

Elle